From behind the lens to the heart. My Journey. My Pain. My Love. My Hope. My Joy. My Smile. Here is a snapshot of my life.
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
My P90X Diary

Recently, I have heard a lot of talk about this program called P90X. I heard it was HARD, INTENSE, and a LOT of Work. So I had made up in my mind, that I was going to slowing back away from the program (without starting :) and stick with my gym workout. After a friend of mine had a long conversation with me, I decided what the heck, Lets "Bring It." (One of Tony Horton's Favorite saying.)
So what exactly is P90X? According to BeachBody.com, " The P90X® workout program is a revolutionary system of 12 sweat-inducing, muscle-pumping exercises designed to transform your body from regular to ripped in just 90 days. Your personal trainer, Tony Horton, will keep you engaged every step of the way, and you won't believe your results!"
To hear Reviews about P90X go to BeachBody.Com and read some of the testimonies.
I am currently on Day 16... And it can be a challenge to say the least. My body has been hurting, but I have seen some change come in these first 16 days, so I refuse to give up on it now. But I need some help... I need some support and I want to support you. So You keep me posted on your progress with P90X and I will keep you posted on mine.
I'm not bold enough to post my before picture YET, but its coming when I get that confidence.
If you want to post pictures, GO FOR IT!
If you have some tips, POST THEM!
If you have some recipes, POST THEM!
If you are having a hard day, TELL US! We are here to support each other.
I would love to know what equipment you are using and what day you are on also.
I am only using the Resistance bands... BUT I LOVE THEM!
Also sign up for a free coach at BeachBody.com and track your goals on their website also.
Monday, October 4, 2010
The Little Things
While enjoying my day with my family, I had to stop and count my blessings. So many times, we get lost in the fast pace world that we call life. We forget about others because we are thinking about ourselves. Or forget about ourselves, because we are thinking about our kids. Something has out minds blocked out from focusing on the little things.
As I watching the kids play basketball and seeing my father in his element, I began to think about when I was in middle school... I had it made. I'm was blessed beyond measures. Money had no true value... All we thought about was getting concession (which we called Hawk Treats) on Friday. Teachers reminded us over and over again, when we had an assignment due. Friends would make us mad and we may stop talking for a few hours, but by the time 7th period came we were friends again. Drunk and high had a different meaning, we had "drunk" some good Kool-aid and we wanted to go as high as we could on the swings. The Little Things.
The little things like...
Being able to get up out the bed in the morning
Being able to smile Being in good health
Being able to speak/hear/see
Having something to eat
Having air to breath
Having rough days to appreciate the great days
The little things...
For me, I just have to say Thanks because I'm content. I'm not where I want to be, but I'm thankful I'm not where I could be.
I could be...
Homeless
Sick
Hungry
Depressed
Suicidal
Jobless
On Medications
Crying Every Night
or Dead...
But I'm not.. I'm here!
I'm breathing, laughing, smiling, joking, and thinking...
So when the little things, become big...You Will Appreciate... The Little Things!
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Breast Cancer Aweness Month
Looking Beyond The Outside

So many times, we are quick to judge people,
- By the way they look
- By the way they act
- By their beliefs
- By their religion
- By ANYTHING....
We need to get to the point in our lives when we stop lying to ourselves and start accepting who we are. It's not an easy things.
I struggled with my weight. I live in a world where being plus size is not considered cute nor beautiful. Not until I realized that, I am the way that I am, and I have the right to change it... Nothing was going to change. I have been working hard for the past Seven weeks and now I see change in myself. But not until I took a different look at it, and looked beyond the outside of my body, did I see my true motive. I have the chance right now, while I am young to get to a body weight that will make me happy.
After hearing about the college freshman who killed himself, because his roommate videoed him having sex with a guy, I had to do a quick reality check on myself. Since I believe in Jesus Christ and believe what is written in the Bible, I don't agree with homosexuality. But they are people just like we are... Their feeling get hurt just like our feelings get hurt. THEY ARE PEOPLE. We have things to say about them or people who are different than us... but when you look in yourself... I'm sure there is something that you don't like about yourself, but there is something even better inside of you that makes up for what you don't like. We have to start looking beyond the outside.
If you were to judge me from the outside, you would see my scars, but yet you don't know the story behind my scars. You don't know how many days I hated going to Wal-mart because people would look and stare at me. You don't know that I would go in the bathroom and never turn the light on, because I didn't want to see myself. You don't know that I never wanted to wear make-up because doctors told me from a young age that I need to wear makeup to cover up my scars. You don't know how many times people look at my scars instead of looking me in the eyes. Not until college, did I embrace my scars and love them and smile about them. Now I am able to speak to kids who have scars and they know I know how they feel. Now I am able to see that God choose me because he knew that I could handle it.
Not Until you look beyond the outside... will you see the real person.
My chains may be rusty, but they are strong enough to hold me together.
Monday, August 9, 2010
College Students: Renting Textbooks
Everyone knows how expensive their college textbooks were at the start of the term. Here we are, it’s the end of the term and the bookstore wants to give you pennies on the dollar for your books. I say forget the bookstore! You can make some real dough by going to www.chegg.com/buyback/ . They’ll pay you top dollar for your books, like $40 each – and no lines because it’s online. What could you do with double the money the bookstore would give you? Chegg even pays the shipping!
How about the fact I have a promo code CC130088 that gets you an extra $5 with your order?
GET lots of cash + GET more cash = A green way to sell your books
Go to www.chegg.com/buyback/, you can get your used textbooks sold now. After all, you read your books cover to cover, or at least that’s what your professor believes, so you should be smart enough to know where to sell them for the extra buck, smarty pants.
The Chegg Champion program helps students earn cash for college.
Sunday, August 8, 2010
The World We Live In

Well, It has been a while since I blogged. I just haven't had time with finals and all, but now I have two weeks to myself.
So about two months now, my Young Adult Sunday School has been reading this book called "Fatal Distractions." All I can say is WOW. It is talking about how the seven deadly sins are effecting us. We may not think that most of them are about us, but somewhere in them there we are.
So about three weeks ago now, we covered lust. Wo... is what comes to mind. After reading my lesson, I caught up on my listening to The Brickhouse Podcast... you need to subscribe to them if you want some powerful encouraging word for young adults and I think anyone else. So the first one I listened to was Rated R. It was an open forum about questions that Young Adults (YAs) want to know. That was awesome. So then I went to Unprotected Sex. Wow wow WOW! That was sooooo powerful and for me.
As a Christian, I have found it hard to stand up and be different, but within the last five or more years, I have been able to stand and not sit. I have been able to kneel and not fall. Prayer is so important, and I don't feel like people my age and younger understand how powerful it. I know that I had my "Come to Jesus Experience" when I was younger, and I know that I should be thanking God for letting me live through that bus accident. Since I have had that, I know that the least that I can do is say thank you for each and every day. I'm honestly scared for the youth underneath me, I'm scared for my fellow YAs who haven't realized that tomorrow is not promised and they can die two minutes from now. I see the need for a strong youth group and YA ministry, but one person can't do it along.
About three or four weeks ago, I heard on the news where they were offering ELEMENTARY students condoms as long as they talk to a counselor, and they would not tell their parents. First, that is not in God's will, and Second, they are in elementary school. That should not be on their mind. They need to be learning how to read, write and count, not about penis, vagina, and sex. What is this world coming to. God's word says that we are not suppose to have sex outside of marriage. During our Sunday School lesson, our teacher said, "It's like we are prostitute if we have sex outside of marriage," and that got me. Our bodies are not our own. They belong to God, and they were bought with a price. So if He says that we are not suppose to have sexual relationship with anyone outside of a martial covenant of one man and one woman, we are sinning and prostitutes. After reading and applying this lesson to my life, I'm dedicated to doing whats right. In the words of Pastor Tim Ross, "You may be a virgin but you mouth is not one." Its time to be Real.
I pray for the youth and kids under me. They go through a lot and they are my heart. I want to do something that will plant a seed and I think that is what I am doing everyday. I try to live a life that is acceptable to God and that is an example to the youth that look up to me.
That is what has been on my heart and now its on my blog.
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